Day 34: July 4th

#healthymichelley has sore glutes... FINALLY!

As mentioned in my VLOG - My ego took a bit of a hit today when a few women on the support page questioned my exercise form in the divebomber push-ups video I shared with the group.

I say, my ego, because she (my ego) is very protective of me. She does not like it when anyone tries to hurt me. Her name (my ego) is MissElle. When MissElle feels I've been threated, she will say anything to me to convince me that I've been wronged and that I need to take action and fix how I've been wronged. She makes me question and doubt myself so as to avoid embarrassment and humiliation. And as helpful she believes she is to me, she is NOT who I need on my team. I don't need her protection. I need her support! I battle MissElle all the time and let me tell you... I am getting sooo much better at it!

After today's battle, I took some time to reflect on how I was feeling and why MissElle felt so threatened by a few innocent criticisms. And then I came to realize that their criticisms weren't a reflection of me. They were a reflection of them.

The quotes below helped me to see clearly how to move forward and past these feelings of inadequacy and not good enough. I am no longer feeling like I don't belong in that Support Group. In fact being in that Support Group, is EXACTLY where I belong.

To take a page out of Brene Brown's book... I'm in the Arena sharing my progress. I'm battling it out on the playing field baring it all for everyone to see, and for anyone to judge. Perfect form, or not, I'm being brave and courageous for showing my work and if anyone doesn't like what I have to say or what I have to show... that is their problem. Not mine.

Me? I'm gonna keep doing my thing. Why? Because I love this shit!